Ahh, this is them then, the post big race blues. I’ve not experienced this feeling before, having only done small races with very little hype. I find myself in the biggest set of doldrums I’ve been in for a very long time, not quite knowing how to get out.
I was so full of emotion after the Great North Run that I didn’t quite know how to express it. Some of it came out as anger against the crowds that caused my husband to miss my finish and kept me waiting for him for over an hour after the race. Some of it was despondency – how can I put myself through that again. And some of it was just delight at having been there at the largest ever biggest half marathon in the world.
The race itself, the joy that was the race, was getting lost beneath all these all negative emotions and I had to step back and deal with that. I found myself sending ranting tweets to celebrities who dared to tweet how wonderfully organised the event was. I was pretty wound up at the way I was left feeling after the race but, apart from the people who called for the buses to be emptied too early, I have no beef with the event organisers. Everything else was caused by the sheer volume of people attending. And the only way they can deal with that is to further cap entries.
I enjoyed running with Murphy on Tuesday, totally naked of technology and just running as I wanted. Slowly and without breaking into a sweat was what I needed. Today it’s very wet and the light isn’t good. I won’t chance running on the road or running through the woods – I will be hopping onto the treadmill and making the best of a rotten day.
I am now looking at what to do next. I’ve promised that I will do the Rock and Roll Half Marathon in Edinburgh next April. I think I will make that my big event of the year. I can always put my name down for the GNR 2013 ballot and let fate decide if I am to do the event next September.
In the meantime there is the Jedburgh Running Festival at the end of October and I have a choice of a 10k and a half marathon there. There are some other options available, I just need to work round the rest of my life.
And stop stressing. Life is too short for stressing.