Today’s the Day

Today’s the day I finally get an MRI scan after months of waiting. I thought I would be getting one at my last appointment with the orthopaedic consultant but, instead, he asked for another x-ray.

In some ways the x-ray helped show that besides a hip condition there are also some spinal issues. That explains my permanently sore back then! The MRI will hopefully show the extent of tissue and nerve damage and give the consultant something to move forward with.

I’m tired of waiting and getting my hopes up, only for them to be dashed. The amount of times I’ve thought I was getting better and then slumped back further than before doesn’t bear thinking about. It just makes me more depressed and, in normal circumstances, that just isn’t me. I’m the get-on-with-it girl, the throw anything at me and I’ll survive it and carry on, stronger than before woman!

I have coped with being in constant pain of varying degrees. I’ve got my mobility scooter so that I can get out and about and the fact that I have that has helped with how much I can endure; when I’m not trying to walk, I can last longer standing, for example.

I’m not taking any painkillers at the moment because everything the doctor has prescribed has made me ill. The last prescription was for Tramadol and only taking half the dosage gave me side effects. I slept for two hours after taking just two pills and woke up with a raging thirst and feeling sick. It was horrible and I haven’t dared to take any since. My friends are becoming drug pushers, offering me their own pills in an effort to help. Getting a GP’s appointment is very difficult and seeing the same doctor is impossible; every time I do get an appointment I feel that I have to start again and re-explain the problem. It’s wearing.

I’ve found that if I have a couple of gins in the evening I can sleep through until about 3 or 4 o’clock before the pain wakes me up. Then I toss and turn as every position eventually makes me sore. Last night I made it to 1 am, which makes me very tired the next day. Today I am tired. It’s costing me a fortune in gin, but at least I’m not suffering any side effects! It also doesn’t help that I have entered the menopause and I’m spending half the night too hot for covers and half the night shivering! It never rains…

I’ve been reading up on the benefits of turmeric. I’ve tried everything else and I might as well try this too! I’ve bought a big bag of it and I have a recipe for making my own pills. It won’t correct anything from a bone point of view, but it might help with the inflammation. It can’t hurt.

One day I’ll come on here and tell you all that I went for a run, at last.